Tuesday, October 09, 2007;
♥ 10/09/2007 06:19:00 AM
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when im not sleeping
A wish upon the star
Thats coming true>>
I just woke up, and i din had my dinner. So imagine, a very sleepy, drowsy and stomach-feeling-empty-yetno-appetite-to-eat person blogging. Not a very good post ahead! ): So, close the window right now, if you dont wanna continue reading.
Collected biology paper back today. Okay, i know i know. I had the 'confirm fail' mentality drilled into my mind already, but i just cant help but feel sad over it okay. ):
See the great contrast when im in sec sch and jc. In sec school, biology always seems to be my so-called 'best' subject, not tt i did well in it literally, but just tt i can score in it btr than phy and chem. Plus the fact tt, i used to think of bio tb as a very interesting storybook! Really, you read bout how the impulses get transported from this neurone to the other, how your food travels around in your body like they are on boats rowing down your bloodstreams, and everything else. So cute! :D
But now, wa. I dread it everytime we have bio lectures/tutorials. I dread it everytime i readflip thru my bio notes. And i totally dread it everytime we have to cram all the millions billions bits of information into our teeny, puny brains for minor/majoy papers. Yes i so do. ):
Where's my passion for bio? ):
Okay okay, get back to track.
Yeah, i failed my biology paper, and i failed overall. ): Fine, i already know tt this is the outcome even before i sit for the paper, but im still disappointed. ):
Esp in bio lab today, i feel so terribly Fscrewed up. I kept thinkin bout what to do if i retain, poly or jc? I dunno! ):
Okay, the good point is, i have classmates who cares. (: Both benj and des said smth thats really touching, and really 'stressful'. They said no, no one will retain from 07S07. Everone will promote together.
Like what huili said, now, it seems as though retainin isnt just bout being sorry to yourself, and family. But it seems like the whole class's business already. And it's stressful because, i dunno. ):
So i was thinkin and thinkin, and i went toilet. (You will go diao, blog this detail for what) Mm, and i teared abit. =X This is so embarrassing, but i wanted to blog this cos i haven exactly teared/cried in school campus for some time alr.
Then i started to think bout this question. When's the last time you cry/tear/sob? Its not very long ago since i last tear. But it's been awhile since i last cryhard. Mm, i just dont have the privacy and time to do so anymore i think. ): And sometimes, i wanna act strong, and sollow all the tears down. In fact, thats what i always do. Sollowing the tears, and burying everything inside of me, with the mentality that no one cares and no one understands. Trying hard to hide my true, naked feelings inside this turtle shell, so that no one will ever discover it. Puttin on those stupid fake masks everytime im out with my friends. Hey, i could act pretty well i feel. Well, the skill just accumulate over the years, and yeah. So i guess thats why im pretty good at it now.
But then again. Who was i trying to kid, right? You?
Perhaps, just myself. =X
Had chinese 'test' after school. Went jec with classmates (beeping huiyee huili aaron and bryan).
We had a crazy time when we're eating. We just laughed and laughed, like nobody's freaking business. (Which indeed, its true)
And then, we took neo prints, and then we went home.
Okay, seems short, but i did have my fair share of fun time. (:
Hey guys, thank you, you. (: Yall made me forget bout my sadness and sorrow temporarily, for a short while. :D
Huili, yourtruly, beeping, huiyee. <3> Yeah, i think we took really long in the toilet today. =p
Huiyee looks terrible gu-niang in this pic i feel. (:
Eh! This picture is really nice la! Stupid aaron. ):
Anyways, i just wanna say that i feel uncomfortable, with the uncessary 'attention' that my friends are showing me. Yes, they are concern, but sometimes. I'll feel much btr, if i were treated like the rest. Really.
somehow i just wish you know whats going on;
&maybe things will be fine after awhile.
